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About misslanilenore

I'm an indie writer of horror, dark fantasy, and fairy tale re-tellings. I'm currently have completed my Nevermor trilogy, around which this blog is based, converting a dark and twisted Peter Pan fiction into an original work. But I have other works as well. After years of posting my work online (and quite a few rejection letters) I decided to take matters into my own hands and self-publish my works. Follow me as I single-handedly take hold of my own fate and follow my dream of becoming a recognized author.

Sunday Blues

Many people get the blues on Monday — it’s back to work after the weekend, your time is no longer your own. I understand that. But for me, the down day has always been Sunday. On Sunday, I either feel depressed because my life is not where I want it to be, or I’m in a mad frenzy to fix said life and catch up on all the things I should have done during the week (month, year).

More often than not, I feel pretty down. But my mind is always working on Sunday. I think of all the things I ought to do and haven’t done; I plot about how to ditch the things I don’t like and do things differently. It’s not always about writing. It’s about different aspects of life — about what I’m willing to do and what I’d have to do to get where I want to be.

I guess, truthfully, maybe I’m a control freak. Which is why I am a better writer than a faithful reader. If there is something I don’t about a book (as with life) I want to push it aside.

Luckily, today I’m in one of my frenzy moods, and I’m getting things done — which is probably owing to the fact that I have been very excited about my progress on Dark Depths, but as I wind down my editing and prepare to publish, I feel a hole forming. I’ll need to start a new project soon or I’m going to feel the same way again. I’ve been thinking about what I want to do next…

Today I’m in a ‘go big or go home’ mindset as I think about my next book. I want bigger things for it than I’ve done in the past. Bigger will require putting myself out there on a larger scale than I’m used to. It will mean more money out of my pocket to start, and I can only hope for a return. Then there is the fear. I don’t always feel fear when I publish. It’s encouraging to know that I have fans eagerly awaiting my next book, but as I think of attracting more attention, I worry that those who will find my work won’t be those who’ll like it. Can my work really stand up to to what’s out there? In the front of my mind, I know that it can, but somewhere in the back there is a little nagging voice that says ‘maybe not’.

Maybe this little bit of anxiety is good. It means I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and pursuing something bigger. It’s taking a risk that might play out just as I’d want. On the same token, it might return something I don’t want, but I won’t know it until I give it a try.

I’ll be giving some details about Dark Depths soon, hopefully in the form of a video, announcing the release date and talking about the book a bit – what I intend to do with it. So it’s time to ditch these blues and be excited again. There’s a lot to do!

The Disappearing Author

The other day, I was looking through my Goodreads bookshelf at some of the things I’ve read recently (I really don’t read as much as I should, but that’s another matter.) Anyway, I looked through a few reviews I had written, and I came across a book by an indie author that I had read and enjoyed. I couldn’t quite get over how much the book was like The Hunger Games, but I liked it anyway. There were two more books making up her trilogy. I did not read them, though I suppose I had meant to.

This author had published her first book around the same time I published Nevermor, and though I don’t remember ever talking to her directly, I suppose that was a connection between us. When I saw the book on my list, I had a sort of ‘oh yeah!’ moment, and I thought I would see what the author had been up to lately, since I hadn’t been following her. I decided that I would follow her on Goodreads, only to discover that she hadn’t added any books (even to read) since late 2015.

I like to watch other writers, see how they market themselves and all the hard work they do as an inspiration to myself. This author’s book won an award, it was a ‘best-seller’ (but who knows what that means anymore), she did a lot of guest blogging and worked to promote herself for a while, and then nothing.

I decided to dig deeper. I checked her website, twitter, blog — nothing. It just made me start thinking. What happened? She finished out her trilogy, which had increasingly lower reviews with each volume (much like my own trilogy) and she released one other short book in between before she, apparently, threw in the towel. Maybe she simply accomplished what she set out to do with that one trilogy, and that was that. Who knows. Maybe it was something else. I don’t know her personal situation, but it just made me think.

I know it’s hard out there, and I’ve wondered over the value of it myself at some points, but I always come back and keep fighting. Because I want this. I’ve known since a young age that this is what I want to do. I want more than what I’ve accomplished so far, and while it isn’t much, I’m gaining more all the time. It shows, sometimes when I’m not looking for it.

Recently, I was contacted by an indie author just starting out who wanted to share some news with me. I had inspired him, and he’d found the drive to write a novel that he decided to publish, and dedicated it to me (among others). I was very flattered, as I always am when people share these things with me. I know that somewhere in the world, I am not invisible, and what I have done is a representation of courage that I’m not sure I even have sometimes. There are people who know who I am and love what I do, even if that group is small. I like to think that it’s ‘select’. 😉

I don’t want there to be any illusion — writing is not my full-time job. Oh, that it were! But it’s not. Maybe one day it will be. But there is another truth: I don’t want to disappear.

I’ve been working very hard recently, truly feeling the drive again. The words are music and I can’t wait to get up every morning and work. I’m writing and editing constantly, feeling more inspired than I have in a long time, and I don’t want to lose it.

I wrote this post, not to shame this author or any other on the verge of this difficult choice, but I’m going to use this as an inspiration to myself, but also to you out there: don’t forget about your favorite authors. If you enjoy their work, tell them so. Support them as you are able, even if it’s with words, because there may come a day when they are no longer there.

2017: A Better Year

2016 was not a good year for me or this blog (and as I hear it, it wasn’t a good year for a lot of people). But that’s over now! It’s a new year, and it’s time to start it right.

It occurred to me that I haven’t updated the blog in a while, but I didn’t realize quite how long it had been. At this point, we definitely need an update! I haven’t released anything since THE NEEDLE’S EYE in September 2016, and I haven’t mentioned that I’m actually still working. So! Let’s get to it.

First, I thought it might be nice to redecorate the blog a bit, and I hope to get to that soon. It started with NEVERMOR, but now I have many more books than that, so I want the blog to be aimed toward all my books instead of just that one series. It’s still my most popular series to date, and NEVERMOR remains my most popular book.

Now for a current update. I’ve been working on two things lately: DARK DEPTHS, my long-awaited retelling of The Little Mermaid, and LOVE THE BOYS, a modern horror about doomed love.

Currently, I’m posting LOVE THE BOYS on Wattpad as I write (user name Lani_Lenore) in hopes that more people will find my work, but honestly the fruits of this have been rather low (slowly increasing lately, but low). So, it may not last, even though I do plan to continue writing it, and then I’ll publish it in turn. So if you haven’t checked that one out, do so! The first part of it is complete (as an estimate, that’s probably 1 part out of 4) but it’s FREE!

For DARK DEPTHS, I’m still editing and finishing the manuscript, but it’s close. It’s my intention to finish up and have it ready for publishing in a couple of months. My original aim was for March 2017, but I’m not sure I’m going to make that deadline. Once finished, I want to build it up a bit and have more of a plan for marketing instead of just saying ‘Hey! It’s ready!’ Whatever the case, unless I feel that I can’t make it happen, it should be out this year!

I also have a rather short Nano novel that I wrote last year, which is far from ready, but it’s proof that I’ve done something new! I hope to continue working on new material this year. I have a lot of ideas that have been in my head for a long time, and I really need to get those out before they rot. I want to get back into this and take it more seriously again. I know I’ve been slacking, but things are still happening, and I hope you are all still with me!

I’ll keep you updated! I hope you’ll check out LOVE THE BOYS and I hope you’re excited for DARK DEPTHS! These two works will no doubt help me get this year started right!

A Writer’s Struggle

I often read articles about writing as a business: how to get sales, how to market, is it worth it? Some of these articles say the same thing, and though I would hope against the truth, much of what I find is the same.

No. Published or otherwise, a writer may not be able to support herself just by writing books. If you’re making money as a writer, it’s not because you’re writing fiction. You’re writing non-fiction How To books and freelance articles for blogs, dealing with subjects that don’t matter to you at all.

I’ll be honest: Lately, I’ve been thinking about giving up. In fact, I’ve been at that place many times in my life. It’s always just a phase, but the truth remains: I’m not able to support myself as a writer, and I may never be.

Writing has been a struggle for a while now. I’d say it has been for the past 2 years since I started my current job. It’s not always a question of what I should write – I do have a few ideas put back – but it’s finding the time and focus when there is so much else going on. At some point you realize that you’re an adult with an adult life, and no matter how you slice it, a part of having an adult life is always going to be bills.

The honest truth is that what you do with your life all comes down to money – the stress of needing money from somewhere and not making enough to pay those dreaded bills. And this applies to doing anything you love. Sometimes you just can’t manage to get paid for it.

In the midst of these thoughts, I was out one night after work, thinking that I just couldn’t do it anymore. I wondered if all my effort was worth it, and if I gave up writing, could I move forward? What else was out there? I looked at my phone and saw that someone had tagged me on Twitter. I checked it out and there was a link that led me to Instagram. There, I saw a picture of the books in my Nevermor trilogy. A book blogger was doing a post challenge, and when asked which author she would like to meet, she chose me.

I actually started tearing up. It just meant so much to me to see my books like that, in print and in someone’s possession. To have someone say that they love my work certainly makes me feel that I don’t regret what I’ve done and am doing.

It really does seem that every time I start feeling down, something like this comes along to lift me back up. What I am doing is not at all for naught, though it has been difficult to find time for it.

Things are harder now. My day job requires so much attention that I can’t even think about anything else, develop plots or ideas. I have approximately one serious writer friend, and now we have both become so wrapped up in having day jobs that we barely talk, let alone write together. Lately and for a while, the only thing my brain can think about is making money. How can I make money with my books, and do people really do that? From what I’ve read, even most published writers struggle.

The truth is, I don’t need too much to live right now. That may mean a downgrade from the life I’m currently living, but I believe I could do it. I think I could be perfectly happy without a job, but how to get there? What is enough for happiness?

I have 10 books for sale right now – 10 beautiful books – and a few more that I wrote in my twenties and haven’t released yet. I honestly want nothing more than to be able to support myself with writing.

The night after the Instagram pic, I dreamed an entire plot, and I was so excited about it! It felt so good to know that there was still something there, almost like a sign, that my own mind was telling me ‘we’ve still got it’.

I’ve started thinking: maybe writing can still be accomplished if I try to make time in my life for everything. A schedule. Everything has a time and place. Because of how inspiration strikes, this may not be completely possible, but there must be some way to organize this instead of me wasting so much time moping because I’m unhappy and worrying that the spark is gone. That happens with you overthink everything.

I’m happy to say that I’m writing again, and it feels good. Does it erase all the stresses that life in modern society brings? No. But maybe with more effort and learning, I can finally get to a place where everything balances out. I’m looking forward to finding that.

The Needle’s Eye Release Details

In just four days, THE NEEDLE’S EYE will be released in print and ebook formats! I’m so excited about this one. This novel has always been very special to me. It’s an original work that is not based on any fairy tale, yet it is a dark fairy tale just the same. Assuming you are as excited as I am, I wanted to give a few additional details about the release.

  • The book will be available on Tuesday, September 13th. (YAY!!!)
  • It will be available in ebook and in print (paperback) on Amazon.
  • The book (in both formats) will first be available only on Amazon, with possible enrollment for the ebook in KDP (which means you can borrow and read for free if you have Amazon Prime). If this is done, Amazon will be the only place you can get the ebook version for at least 3 months.
  • The book will be enrolled in Kindle Matchbook. So if you purchase the paperback copy, you’ll have the option to get the ebook for kindle FREE!


Three sisters, three cursed men, and a ghastly fairy tale come to life.
When Elizabeth, Delia, and Emily were children, their grandfather told them a story about an island castle called the Needle’s Eye—home to a lord and his three sons. The castle has since been hidden by a mysterious fog, but his story speaks of nine girls who rowed out to the island. None of them returned, and the lord’s family was never heard from again.Years later, following their grandfather’s death, the last ties that bind the sisters to the village—and each other—seem to be breaking.
A careless mistake on the water leads their boat to be swallowed by the forbidden fog, and when they emerge from that cloud, the girls discover that the island castle they’d dreamed of is not a myth.The mere innocence of a curious glimpse becomes a fight for survival when the girls are cursed by the lord’s ghostly sons. Their choice quickly becomes apparent: they can play the games of the three soulless men, or they can give in to death, never to see one another again.
Don’t forget! September 13th!
Pssst! Here’s a special secret for those who are reading this blog: You can actually order the print version RIGHT NOW!

New Release Announcement!

A few days ago, I posted on Facebook and Twitter about an upcoming release this fall.(Yahoo!) But there’s actually more to it than that. No doubt readers have already guessed that this will be the release of a favorite, and a much loved work.

In September 2016, THE NEEDLE’S EYE will be published!


In a seaside village, three sisters learn the grisly truth about a beloved childhood fairy tale—and succumb to a curse more terrible than their darkest fantasies.

Though it is one of my most loved and possibly best novels, and though I wrote it years ago, it has taken me a while to work up the courage to actually publish it. The Needle’s Eye could perhaps be referred to as a ‘trunk novel’. That’s one that an author holds onto for a long time — locked away in a trunk, so to speak — waiting for just the right time to let it be seen. While I’m doing that with all my books to some degree, The Needle’s Eye is not one that I’ve been willing to let go of until now.

Many of my long-time readers have read it before, even while I was still writing it, but since the day I completed it, I knew it was going to be my first published novel. (Now untrue.) Over the years, I’ve worked on it diligently, editing, rewriting, and sending it out to agents.  Though I did have a couple of agents request the full manuscript, nothing ever came from it. Even so, I held onto the manuscript, thinking that one day this would be the work that got me traditionally published.

Even after deciding to self publish, I’ve held onto the idea that I might one day be published on a larger scale, and I was certain that this would be the book to get me there. But times have changed. Self-publishing is growing, and authors have more power than ever before. I’ve finally realized that holding onto this book was actually holding me back. By holding it so highly, I’ve been keeping myself from going forward and embracing change in my career and in growth as a writer. This book doesn’t have to be my best. Each new one should be better and better! That’s why I made the decision that The Needle’s Eye deserves to be out in the world, and this way I can go forward with my own work.

So! Look forward to this new release! I think you’ll love it as much as I do! I’ll have more details in the coming weeks. 🙂