Project Nevermor 5 Year Anniversary!

It was five years ago that I first announced my plans for Nevermor, right here on this blog. I created the blog for just that purpose, but it has gone beyond the Nevermor trilogy, expanding to more of my works that I wrote in years past. After five years, I’m finally finishing off those works I’ve held in reserve, and I’m nearing the time when I will publish something truly new!


I currently have 12 published works and counting. Every time I look at the growing number, I can hardly believe it. I’ve achieved a dream of mine! My books are for sale and many are in print! It’s something that only a few years ago, I never dreamed would be possible without an agent, publisher, and a lot of luck, but here I am!

I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished, and the best is yet to come!

So what’s happening now?


Since the release of Dark Depths in June (and Daughters of the Deep in July), I’m busy planning my next release for later this year. I mentioned earlier that it would be The Hallowed, and I’m sticking to that, though I don’t have a date yet. I’m currently on the last bit of editing, and I’m hoping for a November release date.

I’m gearing up for NaNoWriMo in November and I’m very excited about the book I’m going to write for that. I feel that I’m getting out from under the load of my past works, rediscovering myself, and I feel I’m getting back to the root of what makes my writing great. I hope to take you all on that journey with me!

Also, Jack and Jill has been given a little makeover — inside and out — and is finally available in paperback as well as on Kindle. I know I said August, but I meant September. :p


Not only that, but I’m working on myself as well. I’m trying to be healthier, happier, and put more time into my writing. Just a couple months ago, I decided that I wanted to work less at my “day job” and put more time into writing again. Working and having a career (other than being an author) is just not something I’m interested in, and I realized I would never be happy with anything else. I’m fortunate enough to be able to do this (for now) and I plan to put more time and effort into my marketing and promotion in the near future.

Things are good! I hope things are going just as well for you. 🙂


Dark Depths Release and 2017 Plans

I know this is old news to most of you, but Dark Depths is available now in ebook and print formats on! Well, the news is not quite two weeks old, so maybe it’s not so old after all. :p

With that news comes more: After being unable to publish anything since September 2016, I now know what the rest of 2017 is going to look like for me. I’m pleased to say that I’m going to be busy — in a good way.

Not long ago, I was grumbling to anyone who would listen about how I haven’t been able to focus on writing and publishing since I’ve been working my current day job. Yes, I’m not a full-time writer, as I know many of us aren’t. That aside, I’m pleased to say at this point that I’m able to cut back my hours a bit and have more time for what I love most. I know that this is certainly not a reality for everyone, and I was beginning to think that it could not be one for me, but an opportunity arose and I took it. Maybe now I can get my thoughts in order.

Now enough about that. Let’s talk about the rest of the year!

Releasing Dark Depths in June brings more good news in July: the release of the Dark Depths follow-up novella Daughters of the Deep. This short book is meant to fill in a few blanks in the Dark Depths storyline and paint a more accurate picture of what Treasure’s life was like before she rescued Nathan at the beginning of Dark Depths. Daughters will be released July 18, and is available for preorder right now. While it is only up for ebook preorder, the book will also be in print, even despite its short length.

Following that, I’m going forward with 2 more projects before the end of the year. That’s right — 2 more!

August (or possibly September) is going to see a revamp of Jack and Jill. The book is getting a new cover, and it is coming to print for the first time ever! Published in 2014, Jack and Jill is currently available on Amazon, and can be read for free with Kindle Unlimited.

Beyond that, I have one more book project that I definitely want to release later this year. This one is a fan favorite and one that many people have been waiting for. If you guessed my second gothic horror, The Hallowed, you’re right! I’m already working on it, editing and trying to make decisions on portions I want to rewrite. I have not decided on a release date yet, but I’m thinking about November for this one.

So, to recap:

Daughters of the Deep — July 18

Jack and Jill — new cover and print version — August/September

The Hallowed — November/December

I’m very excited about these projects (as I always am) but perhaps more pleased with myself for making these plans. (Since I’m not good at that sometimes.) There are several other things I have in mind, and am also anxious to work on. Previously I had mentioned the likelihood of a Dark Depths audiobook, and I meant that, but for now I have no projection of when that will be available. I have a few other books that I still want to publish, and then I really need to focus on writing new material!

Things seem to be moving in the right direction now. How’s your writing year going?

Sunday Blues

Many people get the blues on Monday — it’s back to work after the weekend, your time is no longer your own. I understand that. But for me, the down day has always been Sunday. On Sunday, I either feel depressed because my life is not where I want it to be, or I’m in a mad frenzy to fix said life and catch up on all the things I should have done during the week (month, year).

More often than not, I feel pretty down. But my mind is always working on Sunday. I think of all the things I ought to do and haven’t done; I plot about how to ditch the things I don’t like and do things differently. It’s not always about writing. It’s about different aspects of life — about what I’m willing to do and what I’d have to do to get where I want to be.

I guess, truthfully, maybe I’m a control freak. Which is why I am a better writer than a faithful reader. If there is something I don’t about a book (as with life) I want to push it aside.

Luckily, today I’m in one of my frenzy moods, and I’m getting things done — which is probably owing to the fact that I have been very excited about my progress on Dark Depths, but as I wind down my editing and prepare to publish, I feel a hole forming. I’ll need to start a new project soon or I’m going to feel the same way again. I’ve been thinking about what I want to do next…

Today I’m in a ‘go big or go home’ mindset as I think about my next book. I want bigger things for it than I’ve done in the past. Bigger will require putting myself out there on a larger scale than I’m used to. It will mean more money out of my pocket to start, and I can only hope for a return. Then there is the fear. I don’t always feel fear when I publish. It’s encouraging to know that I have fans eagerly awaiting my next book, but as I think of attracting more attention, I worry that those who will find my work won’t be those who’ll like it. Can my work really stand up to to what’s out there? In the front of my mind, I know that it can, but somewhere in the back there is a little nagging voice that says ‘maybe not’.

Maybe this little bit of anxiety is good. It means I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and pursuing something bigger. It’s taking a risk that might play out just as I’d want. On the same token, it might return something I don’t want, but I won’t know it until I give it a try.

I’ll be giving some details about Dark Depths soon, hopefully in the form of a video, announcing the release date and talking about the book a bit – what I intend to do with it. So it’s time to ditch these blues and be excited again. There’s a lot to do!

The Disappearing Author

The other day, I was looking through my Goodreads bookshelf at some of the things I’ve read recently (I really don’t read as much as I should, but that’s another matter.) Anyway, I looked through a few reviews I had written, and I came across a book by an indie author that I had read and enjoyed. I couldn’t quite get over how much the book was like The Hunger Games, but I liked it anyway. There were two more books making up her trilogy. I did not read them, though I suppose I had meant to.

This author had published her first book around the same time I published Nevermor, and though I don’t remember ever talking to her directly, I suppose that was a connection between us. When I saw the book on my list, I had a sort of ‘oh yeah!’ moment, and I thought I would see what the author had been up to lately, since I hadn’t been following her. I decided that I would follow her on Goodreads, only to discover that she hadn’t added any books (even to read) since late 2015.

I like to watch other writers, see how they market themselves and all the hard work they do as an inspiration to myself. This author’s book won an award, it was a ‘best-seller’ (but who knows what that means anymore), she did a lot of guest blogging and worked to promote herself for a while, and then nothing.

I decided to dig deeper. I checked her website, twitter, blog — nothing. It just made me start thinking. What happened? She finished out her trilogy, which had increasingly lower reviews with each volume (much like my own trilogy) and she released one other short book in between before she, apparently, threw in the towel. Maybe she simply accomplished what she set out to do with that one trilogy, and that was that. Who knows. Maybe it was something else. I don’t know her personal situation, but it just made me think.

I know it’s hard out there, and I’ve wondered over the value of it myself at some points, but I always come back and keep fighting. Because I want this. I’ve known since a young age that this is what I want to do. I want more than what I’ve accomplished so far, and while it isn’t much, I’m gaining more all the time. It shows, sometimes when I’m not looking for it.

Recently, I was contacted by an indie author just starting out who wanted to share some news with me. I had inspired him, and he’d found the drive to write a novel that he decided to publish, and dedicated it to me (among others). I was very flattered, as I always am when people share these things with me. I know that somewhere in the world, I am not invisible, and what I have done is a representation of courage that I’m not sure I even have sometimes. There are people who know who I am and love what I do, even if that group is small. I like to think that it’s ‘select’. 😉

I don’t want there to be any illusion — writing is not my full-time job. Oh, that it were! But it’s not. Maybe one day it will be. But there is another truth: I don’t want to disappear.

I’ve been working very hard recently, truly feeling the drive again. The words are music and I can’t wait to get up every morning and work. I’m writing and editing constantly, feeling more inspired than I have in a long time, and I don’t want to lose it.

I wrote this post, not to shame this author or any other on the verge of this difficult choice, but I’m going to use this as an inspiration to myself, but also to you out there: don’t forget about your favorite authors. If you enjoy their work, tell them so. Support them as you are able, even if it’s with words, because there may come a day when they are no longer there.

2017: A Better Year

2016 was not a good year for me or this blog (and as I hear it, it wasn’t a good year for a lot of people). But that’s over now! It’s a new year, and it’s time to start it right.

It occurred to me that I haven’t updated the blog in a while, but I didn’t realize quite how long it had been. At this point, we definitely need an update! I haven’t released anything since THE NEEDLE’S EYE in September 2016, and I haven’t mentioned that I’m actually still working. So! Let’s get to it.

First, I thought it might be nice to redecorate the blog a bit, and I hope to get to that soon. It started with NEVERMOR, but now I have many more books than that, so I want the blog to be aimed toward all my books instead of just that one series. It’s still my most popular series to date, and NEVERMOR remains my most popular book.

Now for a current update. I’ve been working on two things lately: DARK DEPTHS, my long-awaited retelling of The Little Mermaid, and LOVE THE BOYS, a modern horror about doomed love.

Currently, I’m posting LOVE THE BOYS on Wattpad as I write (user name Lani_Lenore) in hopes that more people will find my work, but honestly the fruits of this have been rather low (slowly increasing lately, but low). So, it may not last, even though I do plan to continue writing it, and then I’ll publish it in turn. So if you haven’t checked that one out, do so! The first part of it is complete (as an estimate, that’s probably 1 part out of 4) but it’s FREE!

For DARK DEPTHS, I’m still editing and finishing the manuscript, but it’s close. It’s my intention to finish up and have it ready for publishing in a couple of months. My original aim was for March 2017, but I’m not sure I’m going to make that deadline. Once finished, I want to build it up a bit and have more of a plan for marketing instead of just saying ‘Hey! It’s ready!’ Whatever the case, unless I feel that I can’t make it happen, it should be out this year!

I also have a rather short Nano novel that I wrote last year, which is far from ready, but it’s proof that I’ve done something new! I hope to continue working on new material this year. I have a lot of ideas that have been in my head for a long time, and I really need to get those out before they rot. I want to get back into this and take it more seriously again. I know I’ve been slacking, but things are still happening, and I hope you are all still with me!

I’ll keep you updated! I hope you’ll check out LOVE THE BOYS and I hope you’re excited for DARK DEPTHS! These two works will no doubt help me get this year started right!

A Writer’s Struggle

I often read articles about writing as a business: how to get sales, how to market, is it worth it? Some of these articles say the same thing, and though I would hope against the truth, much of what I find is the same.

No. Published or otherwise, a writer may not be able to support herself just by writing books. If you’re making money as a writer, it’s not because you’re writing fiction. You’re writing non-fiction How To books and freelance articles for blogs, dealing with subjects that don’t matter to you at all.

I’ll be honest: Lately, I’ve been thinking about giving up. In fact, I’ve been at that place many times in my life. It’s always just a phase, but the truth remains: I’m not able to support myself as a writer, and I may never be.

Writing has been a struggle for a while now. I’d say it has been for the past 2 years since I started my current job. It’s not always a question of what I should write – I do have a few ideas put back – but it’s finding the time and focus when there is so much else going on. At some point you realize that you’re an adult with an adult life, and no matter how you slice it, a part of having an adult life is always going to be bills.

The honest truth is that what you do with your life all comes down to money – the stress of needing money from somewhere and not making enough to pay those dreaded bills. And this applies to doing anything you love. Sometimes you just can’t manage to get paid for it.

In the midst of these thoughts, I was out one night after work, thinking that I just couldn’t do it anymore. I wondered if all my effort was worth it, and if I gave up writing, could I move forward? What else was out there? I looked at my phone and saw that someone had tagged me on Twitter. I checked it out and there was a link that led me to Instagram. There, I saw a picture of the books in my Nevermor trilogy. A book blogger was doing a post challenge, and when asked which author she would like to meet, she chose me.

I actually started tearing up. It just meant so much to me to see my books like that, in print and in someone’s possession. To have someone say that they love my work certainly makes me feel that I don’t regret what I’ve done and am doing.

It really does seem that every time I start feeling down, something like this comes along to lift me back up. What I am doing is not at all for naught, though it has been difficult to find time for it.

Things are harder now. My day job requires so much attention that I can’t even think about anything else, develop plots or ideas. I have approximately one serious writer friend, and now we have both become so wrapped up in having day jobs that we barely talk, let alone write together. Lately and for a while, the only thing my brain can think about is making money. How can I make money with my books, and do people really do that? From what I’ve read, even most published writers struggle.

The truth is, I don’t need too much to live right now. That may mean a downgrade from the life I’m currently living, but I believe I could do it. I think I could be perfectly happy without a job, but how to get there? What is enough for happiness?

I have 10 books for sale right now – 10 beautiful books – and a few more that I wrote in my twenties and haven’t released yet. I honestly want nothing more than to be able to support myself with writing.

The night after the Instagram pic, I dreamed an entire plot, and I was so excited about it! It felt so good to know that there was still something there, almost like a sign, that my own mind was telling me ‘we’ve still got it’.

I’ve started thinking: maybe writing can still be accomplished if I try to make time in my life for everything. A schedule. Everything has a time and place. Because of how inspiration strikes, this may not be completely possible, but there must be some way to organize this instead of me wasting so much time moping because I’m unhappy and worrying that the spark is gone. That happens with you overthink everything.

I’m happy to say that I’m writing again, and it feels good. Does it erase all the stresses that life in modern society brings? No. But maybe with more effort and learning, I can finally get to a place where everything balances out. I’m looking forward to finding that.